It's fantastic when I get an email or message from a parent of a young person with an eating disorder, or the young person themselves, about how my blog and / or website have contributed in some way towards their recovery from anorexia or another ED. I'm not saying this to boast. Not in the slightest! It's just that this kind of message makes my day, especially when I'm not feeling very motivated or a bit down.
I've been feeling a bit naff recently and you've probably noticed I haven't been blogging much. I've been feeling really low and apathetic. Kind of depressed. I've been finding it really hard to get my act together and DO things. As a result I've spent a heck of a lot of time procrastinating and doing very little - freelance work, social life and just about everything else. I've also been sleeping very badly and having nightmares; the kind of nightmares where you wake up shouting... And now I've got a cold.
It's probably something to do with fallout after Ben's three-year struggle with anorexia. A sort of mild form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Or at least that's what the therapist I saw over the summer thought.
And over the past month it's been 'all change' as Ben comes back home after the brief flirtation with university. I've been busy working with Ben on all the outstanding issues and encouraging him to find jobs, volunteer and socialise - and meanwhile find some kind of therapy for him. It looks as if we'll have to go private...
But when someone contacts me with their Good News about recovery from anorexia - whether it's a parent or a young person - it makes me feel BRILLIANT.
If I can be of some use in a young person's recovery from anorexia or another eating disorder, no matter how small my contribution, I am happy. Because, after all, that's why I write this blog and why I'm writing my book.
Talking about my book... That's another thing I haven't been able to focus on over the past few weeks...
I really need to give myself a bit of KUTA therapy to get me going again. (Kick Up The A*@$ therapy.)